Lately I’ve been distracted from working towards my personal development. I was suffering for a long time with perfectionism, anxiety, depression, and the apathy that comes with all of that. Everything was too overwhelming, so I turned to vices and boys to fill the gaping void. When I could muster up the energy to create something I’d give up after the third shitty idea. I had the yearning to make good work and the talent but lacked motivation and courage. My desire for instant gratification superseded all.  Due to a summer of awakening my hopes are that this semester will be a pivotal point for me. A complete 180. I’ve begun to learn the value of failure not just in design but in all components of life. Struggle brings skill to light. Also my need to appease everyone is slowly subsiding. I feel more attuned to my needs than ever and less co-dependent on someone else to fulfill them. This marks the beginning.